So I can’t sleeep. I’m not sure if you guys know but I went into a day hospital for a few months to get help with depression. It’s gut wrenching kind of depression that lies and steals all hope from you. If you’ve never been there that’s more than ok because it’s the closest thing to hell I know of. Especially when you have EVERYTHING to live for. Family that loves you , a beautiful baby boy, incredible friends , good job, faith that we serve a loving God….and it’s still there just hovering over you like a fucking black cloud. Well in October is when I checked my self in to a part time program but it wasn’t cutting it so we stepped it up to a 9-3 full time program. Fast forward 6 months later here I am. A new diagnosis and on my way to better help. The good news is A LOT of that fucking black cloud has FINALLY lifted with medication, learning my triggers, good coping mechanisms etc. but it’s not too far away but I will continue to work against this beast of depression because it’s not stronger than me. It’s also a liar and look forward to the day it’s way in my rear view mirror. I say all of this to say that if you EVER feel dark, heavy, hopeless, trapped, alone, guilty, etc. it’s a trap, you’re not a lone. There are plenty of places insurance will cover even if one place won’t where you can get help. You’re not alone. I’m fighting with you. ♥️